Back at it

I am posting this mainly for myself as I dont think I have any of my old bloggers left that are on this site anymore.

I am back to training, or trying. I have signed up for the Avon Breast Cancer 2 day walk in June. This time, I am having a really hard time getting back into the zone to to speak. Maybe it is because I am doing it alone this time? I dont know. Last time there were many of us involved in the journey and I am just me this time.

Since the last time I blogged on this site, I had found a new friend. He and I have been living together for the last 2 years, and together for 3. Since the last 2 years he has suffered from a spinal injury that goes back to several years ago when he had a fall at work. It was unkown at the time the severity of the injury, but it has presented itself in that timeframe. Because of this, he is very limited to what he can and can't do. I have fallen into his pattern of his and have gained weight and that is what is holding me back right now. I can't continue using his non-abilty to do things to make it my issue as well, and I am trying to break out of this pattern that I seem to be in. I am hoping that posting to this blog again will help me do that. Even if no one else is listening.

Need to Recharge

I have not written in here for a long time. I really need to start again.

For me, when I was writing in here before, I found that it was very therapeudic. Whether anyone was there to read it or not, it stil helped me.

Maybe some of my "old" friends will re-join and start reading again, maybe I will make some new ones.

Here is to starting again, and recharging!

Therapy

I am going to star posting my poetry again. I used this once before for therapy, and it helped.

Here I go again.

Again

I would really like to continue with my blogs. There were a few of us that were invloved in our blogs last year, it was nice having that avenue of communication. I miss it. So I guess I will continue my adventure on my own for now.

Things have changed for me over the course of the last year. As many of you know, I was on my own after being married for quite some time. My life has changed a bit, and my journey continues.

Exciting News

Hello all who are still here with me.

For those of you that know me, you know my love for writing poetry. I have hundred poems that I have written. Many of those poems I wrote while participating in this very blog. I actually started writing poetry when I was quite small, my parents have kept many of the poems that I wrote then, and reading them now, they are quite funny, and some are morbid for one reason or another.

I recently decided to send one of my poems to a company that helps you get started in the music business. Not really expecting anything to come of it, since they do state that most people get feedback or a critique a few times before they ever get noticed. A few days later I received a package in the mail. They wanted to sign me for a song writing contract. So I am very excited about this. They are getting someone to create music for the poem (lyrics), and will create a demo for me. Once this is done they help market it for me. Maybe something exciting will come of this, we shall see.

til next time

Starting Again

Ok, I am not sure who is out there, but, I am going to start my blog again.

Kind of fell of the wagon a bit. I didn't participate in the marathon. Still, I was training for quite some time, and I had accomplished quite a bit. Lost weight, started to feel really good about myself. Although, as my title states, I am starting again.

I stopped working out like I was, gained some of my weight back. I am not really sure what made this change happen, I am sure it was a number of reasons. I am in the process of trying to get my motivation back. I have a new treadmill in my apartment, in my bedroom to be precise. He stares at me every day. I also have a new job. At this place of employment we have a wonderful staffed gym. I have joined a couple of the classes and am on my way to recovery.

So I hope you will join me, on my quest, again..

Til next time

Is anyone there?

Are any of my old bloggers still blogging away? Or has it all stopped since the marathon ended?

My New Car

Finally, my quest for new (used) car is over. I have been trying to find a car that is reliable enough to get my back and forth as needed when I am not on my cooter scooter. Alas the search has ended.

So far I am in love with it. It has many miles but I am confident it will last me a long time. I need to do a couple minor cosmetic things to it, like clean it! And get a better stereo in it, but for the most part it has been taken care of pretty well from what I can tell. Best thing of all is I own it and no more car payments for me!

So the road is getting clearer and I can see the fog is starting to lift. It is only a matter of time.

Crotch Rocket

Again, here I am posting after a long absence.

Things are still a bit hectic. I am holding it all together as well as I can. Financial crap just makes everything worse. I dont have a car at the moment, so I am driving my little Honda Metro Scooter, which I call my cooter scooter, to both my jobs. Most the time it is ok except when it is cold and windy, then I freeze my ass off. But for the most part it has been allot of fun to drive. 100 miles to the gallon is worth freezing.

My workouts are starting this week, it is just hard to figure them into my days which are 15- to 18 hour workdays, just trying to fit it all in, but I will.

I hope you are all doing well, and I will blog more soon!

Stranger

I know I have not written in a long time. Things have been crazy.

The divorce was final on November 1oth. I am now officially Molly MacGregor.

While dickhead and I agreed that we would work through our finacial matters together, and not get the courts involved, as soon as the divorce was final he stopped doing that. So things have been very stressful for me in that area. I am upeat, I have a very positive attitude about all of this and I know that all will work out. I have a second job that I have been working evenings and weekends which I have been doing for a while. Since I work the second job about 35-40 hours a week I have not had much time to work out, so that has stopped for now. I doubt very much that I will be doing the Austin marathon, but you are all in my thoughts.

I will get back into the groove once things get a bit better with me and my time and my finances.

I will blog from time to time, and I always check in to see what everyone is up to.

Again, you are all in my thoughts.

The Old Way

I would like to start posting my blog again, kind of, the way I used to. So here is my first try at it:

Goals & Accomplishments~

I have been doing more of a basketball workout at the gym, versus my regular treadmill one. Although that is still a workout, and I seem to be using muscles I don't normally use, I need to get back into the regular routing. So now that Jim has joined my gym, we are going to start working out together. What I like about that is that he is very familiar with the machines and I am not. So that will be very helpful for me. We are also going to start playing tennis on the rooftop tennis courts, I am looking forward to that since I used to love tennis and have not played in some time. I will keep you posted on how that goes.

Update on the D-Vorce~

Things are running along smoothly. "R" has been doing ok, seems to leave me alone most of the time. Rarely calls me. Every once in a while he will have a "meltdown" but those are happening less often now. I feel that deep down he really still thinks that we will get back together at some time. For some strange reason he has stopped seeing his counselor, I continue to see mine, less and less though as she really feels that I am doing very well. She has been very helpful to me. He continues to try to play the kids against me, he may have been somewhat successful with our son, since I don't see Nick as often, but someday that will straighten itself out. He isn't as successful with our daughter. Probably since she and Andrew live with me, Jess is pretty aware of what is going on, and even though he tells her certain things, sometimes she tells me and we discuss. I feel that my life is getting better and better. I am only responsible for me, and I am taking all the right steps and becoming happier every day.

Poem of the day~

You were always there
A gentle voice in the breeze
A small tug at my heart
Over the years I never knew
The many places I have been
I never found you
Not quite within my reach
I was never really looking
But maybe I wasn't meant to
Not until now
You are my soul
My heart, feels complete
Full my life is now
It doesn't matter where you were
What matters is where you are

Til next time

Slowing Down

Isnt if funny how many of us have slowed down in the blogging department. Why is that I wonder. And my theory about Dan's blog is that he will never blog again. Would I win any money for that?

I hope that our marathon can still take place in New Orleans. I was glad to see on the news the other day, that the French Quarter and the Garden district have faired pretty well under the circumstances. One of the things that I have always loved about New Orleans is the beautiful architecture, and the wonderful secret gardens that are hidden within the buildings, it would have been such a shame to lose that.

While my workout routine had somewhat slowed down a bit, it is making a comeback. The guy that I have been seeing is really into allot of the sports activities that I enjoy, and he has joined my gym. So not only are we going to be utilizing the machines, he also loves tennis and basketball and we are going to start doing that at the gym as well.

I am very happy, my divorce in in process, the soon to be ex seems to be getting better, and I am really looking forward to becoming Molly MacGregor again!!

Happy-but neglecting my blog

Hello fellow bloggers.

I know, I am so bad, but at least I do blog from time to time, unlike someone else we all know and love.

I am very happy with my new life. As you probably know I have met someone and we have allot of fun together. It is fun but very scary at the same time. We have allot in common which feels very weird to me. Everything we do together we have a blast, there is allot of humor in our relationship and I find that we are constantly laughing about one thing or another. So this new life that I am forming is starting to blossom a bit more.

I have been very busy with my social life, as you can see, but I also got a part time job in the evenings which I have been trying to do for some time, and finally got one. I am working at Coldwater Creek, which is one of my very favorite places to shop, and the 40% discount doesnt hurt either. So right now I am trying to balance the gym with job #1 and job#2.

I promise I will get better at blogging.

Still on Track

I hadnt really realized how long it had been since I blogged, until Adolph yelled at me via e-mail. Yes it is possible to get yelled at in an e-mail. You all know.

So I dont want to be like Dan, and not blog. So I wanted to send an update on what has been going on.

I am still on track on my working out, I am still not pushing it as hard as I should. My life has been very consuming. All is ok on the divorce front. Ron has been very pleasant. So that part is going very well. He has even moved into his own apartment and seems to have given up on thinking he will move in with me. Apparently he is heavy into his therapy, and according to him has been seeing another specialist to deal with his recent threats to me.

So I promise to not leave my blog hanging as I have recently, and be better about posting. I will be be more detailed on what my working out entails later.

thank you friends for your patience.

Crazy Soon to be Ex

Ok, so I know I have been MIB (missing in Blog) but here I am with an update.

The divorce has been filed, papers served and all was well... until last night. I have some death threats, yes, death threats that he left on my voice mail, both work and cell, yes I have saved them. He also called my daughter and told her that he wishes I would die, and that he would like to strangle me. Last week, after he "dropped" his keys conveniently by my left rear tire and took a few extra seconds "finding" them, I had a blowout going 65 miles an hour on highway 36, of course that I cannot prove but I am very suspicious. After he left me multiple I am sorry voice mail messages this morning, he has not called. This is a prime example of his behavior and one of the many reasons why I have left. Sounds like restraining order time.

But other than that, my workout is still going strong, but not as strong as I would like it. I am stepping it up this week though.

don't I lead a fun and adventurous life??

The journey continues…

As the two friends continued on their quest, others joined them. Some blogged, some did not. The members of the rag-tag tribe were held together by those who did blog, and particularly by the two friends who had begun the journey together. They became the spiritual leaders of the quest.

One of the two leaders was sidelined. It doesn’t matter why, it doesn’t matter when, it only matters that it happened. The tribe felt this loss profoundly.

Like Arthur, left by Merlyn; like Peter, abandoned by Jesus; nay, like Mick Jagger when Keith Richards is on a bender, no one felt Dan’s absence more than the tribe’s other leader, and the tribe itself could sense the shifting of a great burden. It adjusted its collective feet and waited, with baited breath.

When will Dan blog again?

It would not do to consider that he might never return. This hideous thought, although occasionally whispered, was never uttered aloud. To do so would be sacrilegious.

The tribe sought him out. Individually, they reached out to him, isolated, on a mountain where he had retreated with one favored tribe member for solace. He answered them only in riddles, in metaphors that meant nothing to them, and all turned away, blinking back tears, or defiantly letting them course down their cheeks.

His return will heal the tribe’s gaping wound and stem the flow of uncertainty.

Much time has passed.

Still, the question is unanswered.

When will Dan blog again?

Thor, may he rest in peace

I am being told that some people are just not getting my posting today, trust me, the article that you pull up is about the sneaky character I have named Thor.



We had a new neighbor recently that met with an untimely death. Thor, he was tall dark, some may have considered him handsome. He spent the days walking along the paths of the complex, kept to himslelf most of the time. Apparently there had been some complaints against him recently. Maybe it was because he was a loner, maybe some didn't like him because he was different. I think he just lost his way, like many of us have done. I never had the opportunity to meet Thor, I wish I had.

His death was featured in the news, here is the link, copy and past in your browser. Thor, may you rest in peace.

http://www.9news.com/acm_news.aspx?OSGNAME=KUSA&IKOBJECTID=1b3e4892-0abe-421a-0115-b2b6349fcb02&TEMPLATEID=0c76dce6-ac1f-02d8-0047-c589c01ca7bf

Dreaming

When I would dream, I was happy
my friends were near, my life was good
Troubles were not around me
And the words, they weren't cruel
But something would always change
I would awake, and the happiness,
No longer there
And now when I dream, I am happy
my friends are always near, life is good
There are no troubles around me
The cruel words, they don't exist
But something is changing
I am no longer dreaming

Neighborhood Meet and Greet

Last night, right before midnight, my building decided to have an official neighborhood meet and greet. There we all were, clad in our PJ's, our dogs and any worldly possessions we could drag with us. Standing in the misting cool air, on the sidewalk. Of course if was a fire alarm, but my daughter said it was the building meet and greet, which I thought was pretty clever. Andrew got to see a big firetruck, and Jess and I got to see firemen. All I know is that one of the apartments that is not yet occupied must have had a sprinkler system going off in there most of the night, there was water pouring out of the door. That must have somehow set off the alarm. One of our neighbors had to climb the fence of the athletic club down the street and rescue her dog from the outdoor pool. I guess the noise scared him and he took off and decided to go for a swim. At least he had some fun.

Gettin in the groove baby

I'm back baby.

I was at the gym bright and early this morning. Feels good to start my day working out. I love this gym, I don't have to bring anything other than a change of clothes, they provide everything.

I didn't overdo it, I just walked about 2 miles on the treadmill, since I have been slacking I want to work back into it slowly and not push myself.

I had a nice quiet weekend. Jess and Andrew were gone to the mountains on a camping/fishing trip so I was all by myself. I cleaned the apartment and watched a bunch of movies. Ahh the life of a single woman, I love it. Forgot to mention that so far I have lost a total of 53 lbs!! I need to lose about another 20 and I will be much happier.

Here is to being back in the game!!

Hike

Last night I went for a beautiful hike in Boulder Canyon. A gentleman friend I have met (yikes) and I went. We hiked to a point where you could see all of Denver, Boulder and beyond. Was beautiful. I have always loved doing this sort of thing but never have, it was fun. We then had a wonderful healthy picnic dinner in the park. A very nice evening I must say.

This weekend I will be on my own, no daughter or grandson. I am planning on spending allot of time at the gym, and at the pool.