The day is almost over. Hopefully everyone has something fun planned for the weekend, in addition to the training that we are all doing, (most of us anyway). I am going to treat myself to one of my favorite restaurants tonight. I will go to PF Changs, get some dinner and take it into the movie theatre and pig out on Chinese food (American Chinese food) popcorn and pop while I watch a good movie. I love that you can bring your own food into the theatre now!

So obviously I will not be working out tonight.

This weekend I will be working all weekend long, but, I will still make it to the gym, even if it is snowing, hint hint.

So everyone, have an awesome weekend! I may post over the weekend, depends on how busy I get at work.

Later~

Don’t you find yourself sometimes just longing for night? If you’re having a bad day at work, or, if the weather is cold and rainy? You just want to go home, put on your jammies and crawl into bed.

I have found that there are 2 kinds of night. There is the kind that I just described, finding peace, and there is another kind. If you are having stress in your life, nighttime can be a bad time as well. Everything seems so much worse at night. You lay in bed and think of all of the things that are wrong. Sometimes it seems that it is worse as you lie there and contemplate all of your problems. Then the morning comes and it all seems so silly. Granted the problems may still exist, but you can laugh at it in the morning because it just seemed so much worse at night.

I long for the night.

Poem of the day~

The way you move so slowly
Pushing out the day
While you softly move my way

Your touch it is so calm
So cool, and yet so warm

There is a way about you
That stops me where I stand

I long to feel the caress
Of your gentle hand

The dreams you whisper in my ear
I long to once more hear

And as you whisper to me
I’ll slowly drift away

While the darkness takes me to you
And pushes out the day

Goodnight my love~


Goals/Accomplishments~

Since the Rockies game was cancelled (thank goodness) I was able to make it to my water aerobics class. And one thing that I failed to mention that happened in this same class on Tuesday, is that I met a nice lady that spoke only Spanish. So of course she and I connected right away and we talked quite a bit during class on Tuesday, kind of got in trouble though when the teacher made a comment. Something to the effect of, okay now I want you to work so hard that you cant even talk. So that kind of stopped us. The weather wasn't that great last night and there weren't that many people in class. But it was still a nice class.

Tonight will likely be a night off from the gym.

Quote/Lyric of the day~

“You know the night time, darling, is the right time, to bewith the one you love, now” ~Ray Charles

Have a great weekend!

Music

Doesn’t music inspire you? I love listening to so many different types of music. Do you truly listen to the words of the songs that you are listening to? So many songs have so much meaning but we find ourselves singing along to the words but not really listening to the messages. I am so inspired by certain songs. There are so many good song- writers out there, such poets. I find that the older I get, the more I find myself appreciating music.

Music to work out to: I have a few songs that I use on my workout routine. A really good CD, is Basia’s “London, Warsaw & New York” CD. Every song on that CD has a great beat to it. I usually listen to the whole CD while I am on the treadmill. Some other good songs to listen to are some of Jason Mraz’s, like “The Remedy” and some others too. I also like Greenday and Audioslave. I tend to have certain songs that I always use in my workout routine.

Goals/Accomplishments~

Last night was my wally-ball get together. It was really an awesome workout. Damn we are getting good. Maybe when we get really good we can start to use an actual volleyball instead of the big pink and blue one that we have been using. Last week when I played I noticed that other muscles that I have not used were a bit sore. Like my upper-body, which is good. I need to try and utilize all sorts of muscles to get a good all around workout. I have to work more on my abdominal muscles.

One of the ladies in this league works with my husband. She mentioned to him the other day that I look like a very athletic person. That is very funny because that is so not true, but I will let her have that illusion.

As far as my workout plans for tonight, I am going to a Rockies game this afternoon, as long as the weather prevails. If I go to the game, and If I get back in time, I will try and make the 6:00 water aerobics class. If not, I may go visit my friend Mr. Treadmill. Oh, and am I looking forward to that.


Poem of the day~

They touch my heart and feed my soul
Those words that are for me

I listen as you sing them
And feel they make me free

Sometimes your words may hurt me
Sometimes they make me glad

Often times remind me
Of the better times I’ve had

Other times I shed a tear
Listening to you speak

Other times your words
My knees, you make them weak

So many feelings you can touch
As you sing your melody

They touch my heart and feed my soul
Those words that are for me

Music~ meo 4/25/05


Keep singing~


Quote/Lyric of the day~

I go to the hills when my heart is lonely, I know I will hear what I heard beforeMy heart will be blessed with the sound of music and I'll sing once more ~From the Sound of Music

Pray for a rained out game tonight!

Run Away With Me

I want to run away
Free my soul

Find a better day
Find a better way

I want to feel the ocean
Washing over me

I want to feel the warm breeze
Waking me

I want to lie naked in the sand
Feel the sun on my body

I want to leave all my worries
And be so free

Come and run away with me~meo 4/27/05

All is well, for now

Have you ever noticed in your daily life, and your day-to-day dealings with people, how much people tend to lack common sense? I once thought I would write a book about it. I would title it, “Stupid people and the stupid things the do”, or something to that effect.

Once I had someone tell me that everyone has common sense, sometimes they just don’t use it. I don’t think this is true. I really think that there are many people that do not have the common sense gene whatsoever. We all can tend to do things, that may seem to lack common sense, but right after we have done them we realize what we have done. The stupid ones never realize.

Goals/Accomplishments~

Last night was water aerobics, and yes I did go. It is usually so nice to get into that pool because the water is so nice and warm. Lately the last few times I have gone the water has been so cold. It takes me 10 minutes just to immerse my whole body. Once I get used to it isn’t too bad.

In this class we utilize weights, those funky noodle things and also various exercises. One of the things that we did in one class was to sprint from one end of the pool to the other, do you know how hard it is to run, in water?? That was hard!

I am so immature for some reason in this class. Especially when the teacher says, “Ok everyone, grab your noodles.” Hee hee. As I look around me at my classmates, I see that all of them are giggling too. You know, the 80 year old women that attend this class with me. We have this class in common, and the fact that most all of us are grandparents.

And you know what else happened to me during this class? Do you ever get that feeling that someone is watching you? Like out of the corner of your eye you can see them? Well, there is a large window that separates the pool from the rest of the gym. And you will never guess who was watching me the whole time! Yep, it was the treadmill. He was giving me that look, you know the look, it is the “two timing bitch” look. Or am I the only one that has seen that look? I will try to explain to him tomorrow, or the next day, that a woman needs variety in her routine. As I walked by him to leave, I even heard him say under his breath “You never wear that bathing suit for me.” He is definitely the jealous type I have found.

Tonight is Wally-Ball!!

Poem of the day~

Friends

In our lives we may have many
Hundreds it could be
They come to us in various ways

Some come for a short while
Some, are here to stay

Cross our paths of life
While we are on its way

While I may claim to know allot
True ones, they are few
They are your friends until the end

That is what is you

~MEO4/05

Thank you for being my friend

Quote/Lyric of the day~

“If the sky above you should turn dark and full of clouds
and that old north wind should begin to blow, keep your head together
and call my name out loud now soon I'll be knocking upon your door.
You just call out my name and you know wherever I am
I´ll come running, oh yes I will, to see you again”~ Carole King

Later Friends~

Wish Me Luck

Remember I said I dont like confrontational issues? Well I need to face one tonight.

This blog of mine has turned into a therapy session for me each time I write. So even thought I have not been here long, blog-wise, it has truly helped me.

So all of you that may read this from time to time, think of me tonight while I face this demon that I need to face. I know I am strong, and I know I will be fine.

tomorrow is a new day

What are you searching for?

I have often said, mostly in a joking manner, that I am not sure what I want to be when I grow up. In reality this is somewhat true. Granted I would say that 43 years old is a grown-up, but are most of us truly doing what we want to do? I think we are always on a search for something.

Within the religious community, people get “their calling”, they seem to be called by a higher power to do the good of the Church, and for them, this seems like their search is over. In this same topic I have often heard it said that there is a voice out there telling you what you should be doing with your life but we cant hear this over the noises of life.

Is there a voice telling you something?

shhhhh……are you listening?



Poem of the day~

As I try to figure out
this puzzle that is life
I sometimes am amazed
at the struggles and the strife
Some spend all of their lives
Searching for that piece
That eludes them through their journey
Of full and inner peace
I have to often wonder
If God has made this feat
That some of life’s puzzles
Aren’t meant to be complete

meo 4/05

Goals/Accomplishments~

I was going to go to my yoga class last night. I didn't end up going. I decided that last night would be my night off from the gym. Tonight is water aerobics and I do plan on being there.

Quote/Lyric of the day~

“Oh, my baby, when you're prayin' leave your burden by my door, you have Jesus standing by your bedside to keep you calm, keep you safe, to keep you safe away from harm”~ Mindy Smith

Another Poem for the day~

You tell me I am beautiful
The words they sound sincere

To believe you when you say them
Is something that I fear

Do you say them in the moment
Or do you truly mean those words?

To tell me that I am beautiful
Is not that often heard

So do I revel in that feeling
Of the words you say so free

Or is it just a mind game
That you like to play with me?

Tell me?

I was not able to get to the gym on Saturday. I had planned on it but worked for part of the day, and went to Costco. After buying the whole store I used the rest of the afternoon to figure out where I was going to put everything.

Then came the babysitting for the night. We watched our grandson Andrew while Jess, our daughter went out. Andrew and I have lots of fun together. He is so funny. He is at that stage where he talks and talks non-stop. About everything. What I actually think these conversations consist of, are that Andrew is using every word that he has in his 2 year old vocabulary and uses all of them in various sentences. He has even been know from time to time to use certain words that no 2 year old should ever say. But, being a parent myself, I know that he is not the first 2 year old to do this. So I didn’t get to bed til 4:00 AM, since that is when Jess got home.


Goals/Accomplishments~

Worked for a bit on Sunday and I was able to get to the gym as well. And as a wise fellow grasshopper recently pointed out to me, to embrace the treadmill, as it is my friend, I was able to do that. In fact the treadmill and I are getting to be very good friends. Again, I heard him say to me today, “hey beautiful, you’re back! You want on top again?” So you see, we are pretty close. I was only able to walk 3.82 miles. Since the treadmill can only be programmed to 60 minutes, 65 including cool down, I need to speed up my walking to get to the 4 miles I want to get to. And as I left the gym I told the treadmill that I would see him again soon, and yes I’ll want on top, again.

Poem of the day~

I cant explain it, just seemed to happen
Thought all was well, but apparently wasn’t

Enjoying the game, but not paying attention
The night just flew by, too much drink, not to mention

And as I left, which I can’t seem to recall
Can’t believe I remembered my bowling ball

What should have been minutes, was hours it seems
Thought my house was much closer
don’t recognize these scenes

And then a voice came to me as I drove all alone
Is that you God? Oh wait, it’s my cell phone,
“where the hell are you?”, this voice said to me
I have not a clue, and I really have to pee

And as I was rescued, and guided back home
I was grateful to be safe, and not so alone

And upon trying to fall on the safe haven of bed
I thought I heard these words in my head

Honey, can you share with me this news,
Why the hell do still have on your bowling shoes?

meo 4/05

Never, ever ever ever drink and drive!!!!

This will go down in history as the “bowling shoe incident” I am sure you have heard of me, oops, I mean I am sure you have heard of this person, sheesh, I cannot believe she did this!

Quote/Lyric of the day~
“I need some distraction, or a beautiful release, memories seep from my veins let me be empty and weightless and maybe I'll find some peace tonight" ~Sarah McLaughlin

Until next time~

Ok, so I really had not planned on posting to my blog over the weekend, but just had to share this. I worked out last night at the gym, the good little girl that I am. And I came to realize that the treadmill, you remember, the one that told me to get my fat ass off of it? Well, If I had been listening instead of planning ways to destroy it, I would have heard the whole thing. The treadmill was actually telling me, to not only get my fat ass off of it, but the next sentence would have been "and figure out how to program me so I dont stop after 1 hour." Aha, no wonder it keeps stoppping on me. So, next time, which would be tonight, I will actually program it to go longer than the 60 minutes that I have been on it. Maybe this time I will actually be able to make the 4 miles that I am trying to go.

That's all for now, just thought I would share this. I have actually forgiven the treadmill, and unless it does something strange, or whispers nasty things to me, all is well with my relationship with the treadmill.


Later~

Be Strong

I am stronger now

Life’s lessons can be hard. We tend to avoid that which could be considered confrontational. I have never been one to be a confrontational type of person, and would consider myself one to avoid it at all costs. We all have disturbances and tragedies in our lives that cause changes. And because of these issues in our lives, they can either make us a stronger person or they can make us give up.

Although at the time we never realize that these explosions in our lives may be there for a reason, at the time they are happening we cant think past them, and if we are lucky we can make it through them and learn a lesson from them.

An example of this would be being diagnosed with a terminal illness. When you find out about this, you can react in one of two ways, you can give up, and dwell on this for what is left of your life, or you can use this as an opportunity to live out what is left of it and enjoy everything that you possibly can, in a new light. Knowing that you don’t have much time, you can relish what you have. Personally seeing this through my own eyes, I have found that the ones that give up, tend to leave us more quickly, in body mind and spirit, and the ones that decide to make the most of it, end up having a much richer experience. I have even found some of these cases where people will actually win the battle against the illness. This could be prayer, power of positive thinking, call it what you will.

The lessons in my life have made me a stronger person. I have had many of these explosions in my short life. Each time they happen to me, I know that things will get better, they have to get better. I always tell myself that because negativity is such a strong thing, it breeds. If I was a negative person I would never have gotten this far in my life. I now tend to avoid anyone that comes into my life that is a negative influence.

Each one of these negative, life changing experiences has made me a much stronger person. My life would not be the same had I not gone through them. And each time it happens I become stronger, and stronger, because of them.

Be strong

As I mentioned in my post yesterday, I decided to take last night off. Although I did have domestic chores to do, so that may have counted as part of my training routine. You know, going up and down stairs about one thousand times. So maybe I didn't take the night off after all.

Goals~

My goal for tonight is to work out at the gym. I would like to make it to the 4 mile mark on the treadmill but we shall see. And another goal for today is to get out of my pissy mood. I am almost there, maybe if I write a more upbeat poem that may help.

Poem of the day~

Like a gentle giant she fills the sky
With colors, bold & bright
Given life from a flame
she takes off for a flight
She has so many stories
if only she could say
A distant dream above the clouds
she'll take your breath away

She glides along the clouds
and she skims the tops of trees
She shows you natures beauty
as she glides along with ease

Man will never tame her soon
she's guided by the wind
And who would ever guess
she is but a balloon.

meo

I wrote this poem for some friends of ours in Michigan who own a hot air balloon called the "barnstormer" about 15 years ago


Quote/Lyric of the day~

"I want to touch your face, I want to get a sense of place
Before we step out into the sun”~ Johnny Clegg

until next time~

Way too many words flowing through my veins

It gets to me much quicker
The way you cut my heart

Don’t know how to stop you
I will not come apart

Slowly it decreases
My will to stay with you

The feelings that were there
Are getting far and few

I am losing ground too fast
And hard as I may try

I cannot seem to find
The way to say goodbye

meo~4.21.05

Goals/Accomplishments~

Wow, wally-ball was so much fun last night. Again, for those of you that are not familiar with this particular activity, Wally-Ball is volleyball played in a closed court setting. Therefore, you are able to use the walls and ceiling to play off of.

This particular weekly activity is a bunch of women. When I was initially invited to join this fun group, I had told my friend that asked me to join, that I was very excited about this. See, I used to manage a racquetball club in a previous life, and had a group of men and women that I managed their racquetball and wally-ball teams.

So...I was told that "Oh no we are not any good, the only thing that we will probably accomplish is that we will probably laugh so hard, we may even pee our pants from laughter." I, am so non competitive, I told her I would fit right in. Even though I may have managed this league, I have never actually played Wally-Ball. Racquetball, on the other hand, watch out cause I will kick your ass in racquetball. :)

As far as tonight, I think I may take a night off, I'm tired!!

Poem of the day~

Since I like to post a daily poem (or try to) I wanted to share the poem that I wrote for the Broomfield Relay for Life, on behalf of our team “Wishing on a Star for a Cure”, this is the 5th year I have been part of the relay, and the 4th year I have written the poem for our team:
Wishing on a star for a cure 2005

We will walk for you

You were my friend, as always
We played when we were young
Your doors were always open wide
We knew how to have fun

At times, we may have gotten lost
But later to be found
Years and miles they separate
But love and care, they bound

I always knew you loved me
Your words and face would show
The silence may be present now
But I will always know

You were my Grandma, Sister, Mom and friend
All friends of ours, its true
Because of all of this,

We, will walk for you

meo-4/2005

Quote of the day~

“But often times those words get tangled up in lines, and the bright lights turn to night until the dawn it brings a little bird who'll sing about the magic that was you and me”~ Jason Mraz

Later~

Goals & Accomplishments~

Ok, so I didn't make it to my excercise class last night. I got an invitation to go to the Nuggets game and I did. However, since I have vowed not to miss my training sessions, I did make it to the gym prior to the game.

Since my last visit to the gym, which was Monday night, I knew I could push myself harder than the measly 2.2 miles I had walked on the treadmill. So last night I sped up my walking and I almost made it to 4 miles. Something strange happened though, I was at 3.8 miles and was pushing to 4 and the treadmill stopped. I even think I heard it whisper to me, "get your fat self off of me already!". Geez, so I stopped at 3.8. Damn machine, I'm using another one next time.

This afternoon is my Weight Watchers meeting, here where I work, and tonight is the wally-ball game, that will be fun.


Quote of the day~

“So many things I would have done but clouds got in my way”-Joni Mitchell

Poem of the day~

Do you know how much you’ve touched me?

The places that you’ve touched me, I never knew before
I’m always very doubtful to walk out of your door

I love to hear your laughter, see your smile
And your hear your voice,

I cannot stay, I wish I could,
I’m not sure I have a choice

And even if I stayed,
You know that you would stray
I know that from your words

And so,

I walk away


Until, tomorrow


Molly-aka MEO

Comments of the day

I hope no one minds, but, I have decided to use this site as my writing outlet. I will try and post daily goals, accomplishments, comments, quotes, and finally I will try and write a poem every day. I have been writing poetry for over 30 years and have never found an outlet for it, other than I was once published. Big whoop, I actually dont even remember which poem was published.

I am excited about my new outlet, and hopefully there are people out there that might actually read it, and If I am really lucky, actually enjoy it.

So here goes.


Goals & Accomplishments~

Last night I started with my "training" again. Since I hadn't been to the gym to work out in over a month, I decided to take it slow. I walked the treadmill for about 40 minutes and walked 2.2 miles. I probably should have pushed a bit harder but I didn't.

Tonight is my water aerobics class which is always a blast and I look forward to it every week. I try and attend the water aerobics class every Tuesday and Wednesday nights, I dont always make it, but the intention is there. Tonight I will be there, in my bikini (yeah right).

Tomorrow is the girls wally-ball night, this I am really looking forward to. I have a feeling it will be an awesome work out.

My quote for the day:

"Still haven't found what I'm looking for"-U2 (or have I?)


Poem of the day~

In the distance

I can’t see you now,
but I know you’re there
The shadows and the fog
They are in my way

Time, it stands still
but for a moment

I can feel your presence
Just to loose you again
As you briefly come to me

And though I know you’re here
Somewhere, in this fog
I’ll try to reach you
Before you are totally lost to me

And as I search time after time
Sometimes you seem to flee

Someday I will find you
As I search for the one who

Is me

Molly Olds 4.05


Until next time!

My Goals for the day

My goals today are:

Go to the gym and walk 2 miles on the treadmill (I dont want to overdo, since I have missed time at the gym lately)

Ride the bike for 3 miles

My main goal to accomplish prior to the marathon in 06 is to stop smoking

Inspiration II

I will now try and push myself more that I have been. I started training for this marathon thang, about 4 months ago. I must admit, I have lagged a bit in the “training” department. But I will press on, and continue this quest that I set myself on. I was up to 4 miles on the treadmill and 5 miles on the bike, and then got lazy. Today, I vow that I will continue on this mission that I started 4 months ago, on December 29th, 2004, my training starts again today, April 18th, 2005.

After all, New Orleans, she is calling my name.

Keep inspiring me.

Calling me

Calling my name….

I hear you in the wind,
whispering my name
calling me to you
I long to feel your heat on my skin
I long to taste you
The mystery of you, it eludes me
I will never know your secrets
But I long to learn them
In my lifetime
I will never know them
I am in awe of your beauty
When I am with you,
It surrounds me, it envelops me
I hear you, calling me…..

New Orleans

600 Lb Marathon-Inspiration

Inspiration-

How does one get inspired to work for something as big as a marathon? I have never been one to want to push myself, physically. I think I must have been adopted because everyone in my family has run the Detroit Free Press Marathon every year, except me. My parents, who are now in their 70’s just recently quit running them. Now they just travel the world. They inspire me,

You, inspire me