Have you ever been in such despair about your life that you just don’t think you can go on? I have been to that place before.

Recently, I had so many hardships in my life that I just wasn’t sure how to cope. And as we all know when it rains it pours. Just when I think, that it is more than I can handle, something else would come along. And for those of you that are believers, you always hear that God will not give you more than you can handle. I hate to admit it, but I have thought before that If I was just not here anymore I wouldn’t have to deal with all of this crap anymore.

But then you start to think of all of the things that are important to you, mainly your family. They depend on you, whether you know it or not. And if you left them, you would be putting them through the unthinkable. Life really isn’t always fair. And as I have mentioned before, I feel that certain things come your way to make you stronger.

Poem of the day~

How can I leave
My life is so young

Not sure how to stay
I have just begun

But the issues are here
And I can’t on my own

help myself cope
So I suffer alone

Try hard to resolve
But you’re never there

Tend to believe
That you don’t care

The pain that I suffer
More than one can bear

Need hope to grasp onto
There’s just empty air

I know no one can help
Except for me

So I try alone
happiness I’ll foresee ~meo 4/05

You are the sole person responsible for your happiness. No one else is. Make the best of life, live it as full as you can. And if you ever feel that you are in such despair, call me, I am a great listener.

Be happy~

Goals/Accomplishments~

I made it to the gym last night. I decided to swim and was able to swim 10 laps. Over the weekend I went to the sporting goods store and bought the equipment to play racquetball. It has been so long since I last played that I had gotten rid of all of it. So I am going to start playing here pretty soon, and I am excited about that. It is a very intense workout. Tonight, I will more than likely attend the yoga class at the gym, or visit my buddy, Mr. Treadmill.

Don't forget to try and figure out what I am writing about in the poem I published yesterday.

Quote/Lyric of the day~

“Here's a little song I wrote, You might want to sing it note for noteDon't worry........ be happy. In every life we have some troubleBut when you worry you make it doubleDon't worry....... be happy.Don't worry....... be happy now!”~ Bobby McFerrin